The Final Piece of the Puzzle or what I call The Secret of Life
When I told God that I was miserable, that was a prayer. He answered that prayer by getting me a job in a magic shop. I’m still there today showing magic to magicians; I have access to all the magic I have ever wanted to learn. Any book, any video, and any trick I have access to. My prayer when I first became a Christian was that I wanted God to use the magic that I knew for His glory.
At that time I didn’t think that He really heard me. That confused me because I had this very deep desire (not a whim) to do magic, so why didn’t He hear me? The answer is He did hear me, but it has everything to do with His timing. The exact date that I came to know that I was one with God & He one with me I don’t really know like I know when I was born again. I know that I was born again in August of 1973, but exactly on what day I can’t remember. The knowing that I was one with God became clear after the years I went to Singing Hills and afterNormanhad passed away. God gave me bits of light that I saved, and then all of a sudden the lights went on, and they haven’t been turned out yet.
It’s hard for me to put in words what God has really done. How do you explain that the God of the Universe Lives in me in totality, and at the same time He Lives in you also in totality. I know that I am a magician, and I also know that it is Jesus being a magician in me for others. I am totally happy with that, and I know that Jesus is totally happy with me JUST AS I AM! No changes.
When I first became a Christian, almost instinctively I knew to throw away certain books that I had; they were all books on the occult. God did not press me to throw away the few books on magic that I had. I still have them today. I don’t miss the books on the occult. I’m only thinking of them now because I’m writing this piece.
One of the little pieces of light (I call it that because God was and still is sharing with me His secrets) I got was when God showed me about Van Cliburn. As I said before, Ken really helped me with a lot of things, and one of those things was reintroducing me to classical music. We listened to a lot of classical music, and most of it was performed by Van Cliburn.
Ken told me that Van Cliburn was a Christian and that at one time he entered a competition (the piece he was to play was Rochmaninov piano concerto no.2) and just before he went on he prayed to God, “Lord be my hands.” He went on to win that competition. Like I said, God gave me little pieces of light, and this was one of them. Years later I realized why I was so excited when I heard Van Cliburn; it’s because I heard Jesus Christ playing Rochmaninov.
Whether or not Van Cliburn knew he was Christ in his form or not, I don’t know, but I do know that Jesus told me, He was Christ in His Van Cliburn’s Form. So if God could be God in His Van Cliburn classic pianist form, then God could be God in His Don Konick magician form!
I realize now why God got me off all by myself. It’s because He wanted to teach me personally. The scripture says in 1 John 2:27, “But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him” (KJV).
Why? Because the scripture also says that my faith has to be founded totally in God and God only, no one else. I love Brian, Norman, Fred Pruitt, Dan Stone, all of them, and yes, I know Christ dwells in them. But the scripture says 1 Corinthians 2:5 that your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God. That’s what God was doing, causing me to stand in Him and Him only. He’s the LIFE, no one else, “I am the LORD there is no one else.” And also who is the power of God — 1 Corinthians 1:24 But unto them which are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God, and the wisdom of God.
One of the other little pieces of light that God gave me was the apostle Paul. Before his conversion, he was a Pharisee, a high priest. One of the things that you have to do before you’re officially a high priest is to memorize the whole Old Testament, not just a verse or two but all the Old Testament. I can’t even imagine what that’s like, to know it by rote. I believe that Paul really thought that he was the best high priest in the world, but he was a lousy high priest. But after God brought Paul to his knees, He brought him back up and showed him what a real high priest was all about. He showed him because in Paul’s heart he really wanted to be a high priest. God didn’t have to re-teach Paul the scripture; it was already there. All God did was open Paul’s mind to the true meaning of the scriptures. That’s how Paul could write what he wrote.
So I saw if God could use what He all ready had locked up in Paul (that is the Scriptures) then God could use what was locked up in me (magic). The only thing that God casts out of a person is Satan. Everything else is totally useable to God. If what I’m saying does not sound right to you, that’s ok because it’s truth to me. God says in 1 John 2:27, “But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him” (KJV).
This is what God has shown me, and I live in this truth. If for some reason it is not right, then God will show me and correct it. Jesus went to a small village, and the scriptures said that He could do no great work there except heal a few sick people, because of their unbelief. Jesus didn’t stop being Himself because of the unbelief of the village; he just left the village that’s all.
My brother Ken used to say that the Bible is all truth, but not all truth is found in the Bible. Truth is everywhere. That’s why the scripture says that the Spirit will teach you of all things. He teaches you the Truth that is from the Bible and any other truth, wherever it may be found. The scripture also says that the Spirit will guide you into all truth. You learn from the Spirit, and you learn EVERYTHING from Him. That is what life is, it’s Spirit. It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you, [they] are spirit, and [they] are life” (John 6:63).
Like I said before, there were a bunch of what I call little pieces of light that were finally put together to make one big Flash of light. Before Ken or Norman or any of the Christians I know now, my mother made me and my brothers and sister go to Catholic Church and Sunday school. The big thing they harped on was original sin. It never made sense to me how God could hold everybody guilty because of the actions of two people that I never knew. That wasn’t fair. I didn’t eat the fruit! They did! This was one of the things that bothered me.
It wasn’t until years later that I was able to put it together. Original sin is Satan, so when Adam & Eve ate from the tree of the knowledge of good & evil, that wrong spirit came into them and from them was passed on through birth to everyone else. And that’s why we need Jesus. He replaces Satan at our center. I finally saw that was it, that’s why original sin is so bad. But praise God He sent Jesus, and Jesus did what He did for us. That became very clear while I was working at the magic shop, and I had only been there about a year and a half.
Before I really started working at the magic shop, God brought to my mind a scripture. It was the one where Jesus had just met the disciples and he asked them “What do you want?” I took that as Him really asking me, “What do I want?” I told Him flat out, “I want to be a magician and do magic.” He said “ok” but then I told Him that He didn’t understand what I was asking for. He said, “How so?” and I said that I needed books and equipment, and I needed original Ideas, and He said, “We’ll do it.” Haltingly I said, “Are you sure?” He said, “The Gifts and calling of God are without Repentance.” The next thing I knew, I was at the magic shop. Go figure.
As I think about it, while writing this piece there are so many things that come to mind I don’t think I can put them all down. One thing was a card mystery that I saw way back in the ‘60’s. I was totally mystified as to how it was done. It really fooled me. I searched for that trick for some thirty years and didn’t find it until one day while I was at the shop I was watching a video of a really good card magician, and suddenly he was doing the very trick I had been searching for and he explained it. God solved the mystery for me, and the trick was mine. I call it “my favorite card mystery.”
As best as I can guess, that’s when the Knowing started. When I first started at the magic shop, I went crazy buying books. I was like a kid gorging himself on candy. After a while I slowed down, and now I rarely buy any books. I have what I need, and I know if I need another book I can get it. It’s all God’s blessing.
Ken used to tell me, “Don you have to ask yourself what you want to see happen in your magic.” Those words, along with another thing that I read somewhere – “Magic is thinking man’s art” – broke up the lie, “You can’t think.” When I heard that, it hurt because the lie was exposed, “You can’t think,” but then came the salve: “You have the mind of Christ.” As that scripture settled into me, I’ve had a flurry of ideas, and solutions to magical problems, all because I asked what if. I also had other answers to other things that have been bothering me for years. The depression that I’ve had for years because of my parents’ divorce and stuff that went on in school has left; it’s no more, because Christ is here and I know it.
One final thing that really put everything together for me was while reading two magic books. The first book is called “The Essential Robert Houdin” and the second is called “The Magic of Ascanio.” Both books are part of my small library. Robert Houdin is the father of modern magic; he lived from Dec. 6, 1805 to June 13, 1871. The book that I have is a copy of all the books he wrote bound into one.
In my mind the greatest thing he’s ever written is, “a magician is an actor playing the part of a magician.” An actor is someone who pretends to be someone else in a theater production for the benefit of the play. As a kid I used to pretend all the time. I can act as a magician.
The book “The Magic of Ascanio” is a book on theory on how and why you do magic. Arturo De Ascanio was a Spanish magician who lived from 1929 to April 6, 1997. The greatest thing he ever said in his book is, “magic is an act of love.” Bingo! I have the greatest LOVER who ever lived living in me. I can do magic. Thank you Papa… Thank you Lord Jesus Christ… Thank you Holy Spirit, for all you’ve done for me. For freeing me up so I can be for others by you. Amen.
This then is The Secret of Life to me. As Colossians 1:26-27 says, “Even the mystery which hath been hid from ages and from generations, but now is made manifest to his saints: To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory” (ASV).
A deck of playing card has sometimes been called the devil’s play things. I don’t believe that. In a deck of cards, there are four Kings… The Father (the King of Spades) The Son (the King of Hearts) the Holy Ghost (the King of Clubs), and then there is this fourth king, (the king of diamonds) who is this fourth king??? I know… it’s me! And you… all you have to do is believe.
Love to all,
Konick the Konjurer
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